Boo

It's not too late to get in the Halloween spirit!  If you're not, maybe you can help it along by watching the Great Pumpkin?  Or gorging on candy corn until your skin takes on a sugary orange patina?  Or I could prescribe the dermal application of black cats?  Or maybe you could just carve a pumpkin.

Here's my contribution to the cause..

Bad times

As everyone knows, October and Halloween is my favorite time of year.  I've been trying to work up the motivation to write an appropriately Halloweenish post, but it hasn't happened.  For weeks I've been struggling with some pretty severe depression.  I'm normally rather resistant to such things, I'm generally upbeat, or at least emotionally stable.  But this has hit me hard, and I'm all kinds of messed up.  I feel like I'm going crazy.  I'll have some average days and then out of the blue it'll hit me and I can't stop crying or tearing myself apart.  I don't think I'm likely to go into much detail, as I don't really like to put too personal of stuff out in a public forum, and also I like my blog to be a happy place that I enjoy looking back through from time to time.  But, I don't know, I'm feeling very very hopeless.  Shattered dreams and all that jazz.  I write stories, but I'm just not seeing any happy endings for myself right now.  Rationally, I realize that depression and grief are fleeting things and that eventually things will go back more or less to normal.  But at the moment it's all very bleak and frightening, and I just don't know what to do.